Once again...

Do you ever feel like your life rotates from one state to another? That you are on top of things, everyone is happy (or reasonably so) things are going well financially and you are accomplishing the goals you have set -- then boom, the down cycle begins and you have to start all over again? Doesn't it get tiring? I realize that this is what life is about, but it's so frustrating to feel like you've finally got a hold on things and then feel them slip away...

We had another cat die yesterday. The twin to the one that died before. It's kind of strange, we found him just laying in the field next to our house. My hubby thinks that perhaps he was in an animal fight, but we will never know. They're dropping like flies. This keeps up, and we won't have to worry about how much cat food costs...sigh.

My hubby buried him while the kids were at an activity, and was a little emotional about it. I felt pretty much nothing. It was a cat. Am I insensitive? I don't know. I've known a lot of death in my life, and the fact that a pet has died is sad, but -- I believe their spirits go on, just as ours do. He's happy, he's with his brother, and we have one less mouth to feed. Man, I'm cold. I hope this doesn't dismay or startle any of you...it kind of surprises me.

I finally got some writing done last night. It's been a while, because I don't write well when the schedule is changed. That's something I need to overcome -- I need to write regardless of the changes. But, I'm still where I'm at. I wrote yesterday about the book in a month challenge that Tristi is doing, and I think it's going to be a good thing. I really need something to get me going again. I also really need to finish editing two of my stories and get them out. sigh.

I'm kind of in a gray mood. I feel like I've probably pushed you all away at this point and I'm alone with my thoughts. Isn't it strange how the mind works? I envision blogging as a person alone in a room, opening a door to a crowd of people. These people are all opening their little doors to the world, sharing a little of themselves. Soon, either those people are sharing with others, or they are holding themselves a little off, preferring to just read what the others are writing. Soon, they become a group, a neighborhood of their own. A worldwide neighborhood of people sharing thoughts, ideas, frustrations, family and friends. Have you ever thought how much Blogging would help the world if we truly listened to each other? What an interesting thought... and story line...